Where You Live Matters

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I live in Guam right now.

It is a tiny island in the middle of nowhere, and you have to zoom in a long way to see it on Google maps.

The island of Guam only has around 170,000 people on it, and many of them are military (so often only available for short amounts of time.)

This makes kink difficult for two reasons:

1. Kinky people are always a percentage of the population, so the lower the population, the lower the number of kinky people.

2. Tiny communities mean that everyone knows everyone, so events are difficult and terrifying for locals because no one wants to run into their aunt or brother at a munch.

This means that living on Guam has been kind of a bummer for us.

My husband and I are the sort of people who feed off the energy of other people. In the absence of our community (for munches and fetish proms and dungeon time), it is hard to feel kinky. Sometimes we start to feel like two normal married people, and it’s like huge parts of ourselves have gone numb.

I don’t want to disparage Guam. It’s beautiful. I have been able to make friends with sea turtles and enjoy empty beaches and quiet time (since we’re not overrun by tourists like most tropical islands are.)

I have no right to complain about living in such a beautiful place. I am able to enjoy coral, fish, and reefs filled with beauty and warm water that stretch on for miles. If you want to go on a vacation, Guam is  great place to do it.

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However, as a kinky person, I do feel very much like I lost myself.

I have loved being in dungeons and at kink events since I was 14. I have loved the clothes, the people, and the play. It was all such a big part of my life for so long and it always felt good.

I remember thinking that it didn’t matter where we got sent after I was in Oregon, because one thing I learned teaching in South Korea is that there are kinky people everywhere. I never thought I would have to be without my community.

And then we came to Guam, and I realized that it’s too small for events and the few munches were spoiled by this one creepy guy, and this girl who was insufferable.

Note: Please don’t think I am being unfair. I don’t judge people lightly. I am a tolerant person and I mostly love everyone, but there are things that go too far. I will go into detail so that you can see what kind of behavior turns people off:

Creepy Guy: Refused to listen when others asked him to stop describing the complications he experienced during anal training right down to the color of his runny poop. Also hit on every single male and female that he encountered regardless of their orientation, relationship status, or interest. And, constantly talked about how desperate he was to be dominated by anyone.

Insufferable Girl: Cut everyone off no matter who was talking or what they were saying so she could talk about herself. Had nothing interesting to say about herself. Insisted constantly that she was beautiful and the best sub ever and needed to be bought cars and minks and shoes because of how wonderful she was. Literally interrupted everyone at the munch to go on and on about how wonderful she was and how we should all buy her things.

There are almost always a few bad apples at a public munch, so that in and of itself shouldn’t mean much, but the problem is that outside of those two, there were only six of us (three couples.) And we three do get together, of course. But it’s not the same as a community with events.

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We found out recently that we are moving to Oahu, and I admit, it’s not ideal. It’s another island and so there will be no road trips to the next state over for some fabulous event.

On the other hand:

1. There are nearly a million people there, so there are bound to be more kinky folks on Oahu than there are on Guam.

2. It’s less remote so it’s much easier to get flights from there to other places.

So, I feel like this is a step closer to having a community again. I can’t tell you how much that matters to me! The last three and a half years on Guam have definitely proven to me that I need my community.

I know that some people (who have access to a community of kinky people) will say “You’re better off without the drama.” And yes, I know there is always going to be nonsense when there is a group of people.

In Korea, I actually had a nemesis that I had no idea about until after I left. I guess I had planned an event in Seoul on the same weekend that she had planned one in Daegu (a city to the south.) Now, I did check the Seoul pages to see if there were any other events before picking a date, since I didn’t want to step on any toes. But it never occurred to me to check every obscure city in the country for events before planning my own.

This girl felt personally slighted because no one came to her event and she blamed me.

The rest of the time I was in Korea, though I had no idea, she was furious every single time I threw a play party, munch, or fetish prom.

In fact, she even came to one of my events once and (instead of confronting me about her feelings) was an enormous bitch to everyone. I think her name was Cat or something. I have no idea. But what I do know is, she hated me for years. And when I left, she threw a party to celebrate it.

So TRUST ME, I get that there is drama. I get that more people = more problems.

The universe has not given me the gift of being ignorant of how difficult a community can sometimes be. (Although in the case of Daegu girl I actually was ignorant since no one told me about it until after I left Korea.)

The point is, I know communities can be a hassle.

And yet, it means the world to me to have access to one.

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The thing is, community is so important. You look out there at society and all you see are normal relationships mirrored in every aspect of culture. They are all monogamous vanilla people just going about their lives being dull and boring.

For people like us, there is no model. I am bisexual. My husband is hetero-flexible. Neither of us are the slightest bit into gender at all. We’re kinky. And, we’re polyamorous.

People like us are not represented in the media, in culture, or in others that we meet. There are no goofy sitcom episodes about how a couple goes through a kink slump after living together for a while because comfort and BDSM do not always mix easily. There is no relationship guru radio show to call in to and talk about making space for kink in your life. There are not movies about poly couples happily chatting about their dates when they get home at night.

We are not reflected in what you see in advertising, media, entertainment, or your office Christmas party.

Without community, we are totally alone.

When we feel lost or need advice, there is no one to go grab tea with. I would give anything to have a fellow Dom to just get beers with from time to time and talk about shit. But this is Guam, and we are one of the most remote islands on Earth.

I have struggled with my isolation every day that I have lived on Guam, and I am so excited for it to be over.

So wish me luck on Oahu. I hope I meet amazing people there. But more than that, I hope you all appreciate your communities wherever you are, because it’s awful to be without one. Friends who are like you matters so much more than I can express.

Enticing Your Dom

Why doesn’t my Dom play scenes as much?

I get very few questions from submissives, which may be simply due to their nature, or which may be due to my own. Either way, a charming women asked me:

“When we were dating, we used to play scenes all the time. Now that he moved in with me, my Dom almost never sets up scenes for me. Why is that?”

I had to probe a little bit further into the relationship to get a clear picture of why that would be, but here is what it comes down to:

1. Change in Behavior

The submissive used to write these long, heartfelt essays to her Dom about how much she loved this or that element of a scene. She did this is the time that she was sitting alone at her apartment. When her Dom did come to see her, she always made sure to wear cute clothes and act as sexy as possible. In other words: She used to be grateful and she used to aim to impress.

However, once her Dom moved in, she stopped writing to him (since she was never alone at home missing him anymore.) And, she stopped prancing around trying to impress him because he was always around and keeping that up 24/7 is exhausting.

The Problem: 

Submissive folks may not realize this, but getting into a Dominant headspace requires ego. Someone has to be stroking your ego to make you want to set up and play out a scene. It’s a lot of work to get a playlist you like, set up the toys and the space, and then get into the headspace needed to truly dominate someone and be in total control.

It’s harder still to do all of that with someone that you have come to love, because the very comfort that love provides runs counter to feelings of dominance.

If a submissive used to write kinky love letters and act cute and then they stop, then all activity that prompted feelings of Dominance is gone. You are effectively expecting your Dom to do all of the work, but you are not doing any yourself.

Don’t worry. We all get lazy in relationships sometimes. It’s understandable. However, if you get lazy, then you should not be surprised if your Dom gets lazy too.

The Solution: 

Every kinky couple that I know who is still going strong has a sub who has never stopped trying to please their master. He/she is always vocal about wanting to serve, and they have continued the behaviors that made their Dom want to set up scenes for them in the first place.

Maybe you feel like there are things that have come up in the relationship that have caused you to feel resentful. Maybe because of those things, you have stopped trying to be appealing to your Dom. This can happen.

However, if you want them to be inspired to tie you down and play with you until you scream, then you have to give them something first: Respect and some ego stroking. That is the trade-off, and there is no way around it. No one is just going to set up scenes for you and make you feel magical if you aren’t doing anything for them. Relationships involve give and take, not just taking. (Even vanilla relationships involve effort by both partners.)

2. Keep It Fresh

Let’s say that your Dom had a lot of toys when you met. Let’s say that those toys are fun, but that they are getting a little boring for your Dom and so they are less interested in playing with them. I mean, how many times can you get excited by the same old flogger? Not many.

And then there is the matter of you, dear submissive. How have you tried to please your master today? Is it the same old way as always? Did you just ask if they wanted a back rub or offer to go down on them? If it’s tired, then they are tired of it.

Worse, sometimes a sub will turn their master down any time they bring up a new idea, forever insisting that anything new is a “hard no” and “outside their comfort zone.”

The Problem: 

Your Dom is a human being. Human beings are bored by routines. If you don’t offer anything new, or say no to all their ideas for something new, then they are going to stop wanting to play. That is not unusual and if you are surprised by this, you are being naive.

The Solution: 

First, consider buying your master a new toy for a special occasion such as Valentine’s day. Dress cute, set a nice mood, and present them with a new whip or a new set of cuffs, and tell them that you would be honored if they used the new item on you.

Next, try something new. If you are always offering to rub their shoulders, mix it up and ask if you can comb/brush their hair. If you are the sentimental type, bake them a cake or create some sort of memento to honor an anniversary or special occasion. Find some new way of expressing your feelings of submission and adoration.

And finally, stop saying no. So many submissives turn down all new ideas in a relationship because they are comfortable. Don’t do that. Or, if you have to, then come up with a counter offer. Example: He asks to fist your ass. You think you have not worked your way up to that and that even your big butt plug is not that big. Okay. That is fair. But come up with a counter proposal. Example: “Well, I think that might really hurt me, but I would be willing to try a bigger butt plug or wear a tail for you.”

3. Make Space for Kink

A lot of times, a couple who does not live together will look forward to playing a kink scene and have lots of alone time to set it up or get ready to go be part of it. They can text and talk about how excited they are, and what they want to do. They have time to think, plan, and fantasize.

The Problem: 

Once you live together, you are having the mundane moments together as well. Now, don’t get me wrong! I live life in the mundane. I love little moments when I am cooking with my husband, or cuddling while watching TV after dinner. The non-sexual moments that you share are so important, because they help shape so much of who you are as a couple. They matter.

However, those moments fill up your days, and you find that there never seems to be a “right time” to engage in kink. Sex might happen organically when you go to bed, but a whole scene with all the toys, music, etc might not.

Side Note: I think even when kinky people have “vanilla” sex, they are still enjoying power dynamics and having more fun than vanilla people.

Still, you might find that as comfort and love creep in, there seems to be less time and space for kink.

The Solution: 

You need to make space in your relationship for kink. For me, eating a meal with my husband involves watching TV because I am one of the those psychotic people who hates the sound of chewing. The cooking, eating, and watching TV is comfortable and makes it impossible to get into the kink headspace.

To solve this, I told him that some days he should let me know that he would eat on the way home. That way, we can eat separately and meet up just for sex.

Conclusion:

These are just a few suggestions. And of course, each relationship is different. What works for one couple may not work for another. The key is to be honest about what you want, and for your partner to be honest about what they want. Then you just work to have it together.

Getting Someone Into Kink

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Question: How do I get my significant other into kink?

I got a lot of questions over the holiday season from readers that went something like this:

“I got my wife a bunch of kink toys for Christmas. How do I get her to use them with me? She’s not into kink, but I want her to be.”

After sighing deeply and feeling extremely sorry for those women, I wrote back to say the following:

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First, put the sex toys in the closet and go buy your wife something she actually wanted. It is the height of assholery to buy someone else a present that is actually for you. If you think that is okay, then you are a bad person and you should not be allowed to date until you figure out how to be less selfish.

Okay, so now that we have that out of the way, how do you get someone to be interested in kink?

Well, you need to stop talking in terms of your own wants, and start talking in terms of the other person’s wants.

Remember that changing the behavior of another person means that you have to appeal to them. Trying to force someone to do something because you want it only leads to resentment down the road (which is how you ruin your relationship in slow motion.)

So, ask your partner what they want. Then listen. Then build on it.

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Unfortunately this advice has been misunderstood by others. I thought it was pretty straightforward, but it turns out that I was wrong. So let me be very explicit this time:

Take your partner to dinner. Take them home and have considerate and loving sex with them. Make sure they have an orgasm. (Which, as I have said before, does not happen from just penetration so use your tongue or a vibrator on her clit for that to happen.)

After sex when you are laying in the dark basking in the glow of happy feelings that you get after sex, ask them about their fantasies. Probe them gently about what they think about when they are alone. Do they think any toys sound interesting? Are they curious about the stuff from that book that all women read that was a shitty representation of BDSM but which did involve some spanking and whipping?  Have they ever wondered about what other things you two might be able to do?

No matter what they ask for: Say YES!

This is so important. If your significant other asks you to fist them, or have a threesome with a guy, or anything at all, you say yes and you do it. Never ever tell them “no” about their sexual fantasies or they will not share more. Say “yes,” and then do whatever they asked you to do.

The reason for this is that sex is a rabbit hole. Once you start to experiment, it just keeps going. If your partner tries something they dreamed of and it makes them happy, then they will feel like fantasies really can come true. This will lead to other fantasies. In time, the experimentation will lead to more and more “hard core” things, and soon you will be able to take those toys you bought out of the closet and she will be excited to try them.

Now, I wrote back saying this to the men who asked me. You would think they would say: “Thank you for the advice.” However, you would be wrong. To a man, they told me that I was wrong, and that their wife/partner was perfectly happy with the boring sex they always have. One guy actually said to me:

“My wife was a virgin when we met and she is totally satisfied right now with the sex that we are having. She always has been. It’s just me that is bored.”

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All I can say is:

You are lying to yourself, but that doesn’t mean I like it when you lie to me.

Your wife is bored. She is bored out of her goddamn mind. I know this because studies have shown that women get bored with sex far quicker than men do. In one study, men were asked if they still enjoyed having sex with their wives. They mostly said that they never got tired of fucking their wives, and even though they might have fantasized about variety from time to time, it did not mean that they didn’t want to keep fucking their wives.

Actually it comes up again and again. In studies of why men cheat, they always say that it is not because they stopped loving their wife, or that they stopped wanting to have sex with her. They simply wanted variety. However, they still wanted to fuck their wives.

The same is not true for women. Women get bored very easily. This may be down to biology. It has been suggested that all women want to be gang-banged by as many men as possible so that the best sperm can win and create the best offspring. Or, it may simply be down to men being bad at sex (not knowing how to get a woman off and joking about the “myth of the female orgasm.”)

Many women do say that they didn’t know how to tell their husband that they were stick of him pounding away and then going “Did you cum?” After all, of course they didn’t! That is not how women get off. Some of the poor dears don’t even know how they get off, and they think an orgasm is just “feeling nice” so they imagine that they have had one. I have talked to these women and tried to explain that, “No sweety, you are supposed to have a climax just like your husband. It’s not a ‘good feeling’ at all. It’s an orgasm. It’s an amazing feeling.”

Whatever the case, women initiate nearly 70% of all divorces now, and leading psychologists theorize that this is due to a lack of sexual satisfaction which makes them feel like they have “fallen out of love” with their husbands. In many cases, they really haven’t fallen out of love; they are just sick of having bad sex. Many women who initiate divorces say “My vibrator actually gets me off, and it doesn’t expect me to do its laundry.

I would suggest that men are in denial. They watch porn and have a false idea of how women achieve orgasm, and this is the main reason (in my experience) that women initiate most divorces.

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The point: No, your wife is not “perfectly satisfied.” It takes a lot more to satisfy a woman than it does to satisfy a man (which is why I got lazy and married a man.) Your wife will never be perfectly satisfied, which is why you need to constantly work to keep things interesting if you want to keep her.

I have been extremely interested over the last 30 years or so as I watched the entire discussion around marriage shift. It used to be something that women wanted, and men didn’t. Now there is new research showing that, due to the societal expectations placed on women in marriage, it is no longer desirable to them. They are expected to work full-time jobs, and still do most of the housework and childcare. They are expected to give up their identity by taking their husband’s name, and also give that name to any children they have (even though they literally make those children inside their own bodies.)

Women have started reading about how other cultures do not force women to take their husband’s names, and cultures where children belong to the women without question, since she makes them. They are reading about sperm cells made from their own bone marrow, meaning that men are no longer necessary to have children at all. And, they are realizing that boyfriends bring over flowers and chocolate, while husbands snore and make a mess.

This is probably why women who are married are less healthy, and why they report lower levels of happiness than their single counterparts.

Meanwhile, married man lived longer and reported higher levels of happiness.

I was so shocked by the guy who said that his wife was “perfectly satisfied” and I actually still haven’t written back. I was just so blown away by the level of denial that he was in, and by the absolute lack of understanding of his place in a changing society.

Side Note: When I married my husband he was pretty boring in bed, too. Don’t take it from me, because he will admit it as well. I painstakingly trained him over the course of about a year. And now, when I whore him out to my friends, they don’t have enough nice things to say. It’s wonderful when people appreciate your hard work, isn’t it? So ladies, please train men instead of throwing them away after faking an orgasm. If we all work together, we CAN teach them how to stop sucking in bed.  

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So listen up, men:

Statistically speaking, your wife likely dreams of being fucked by man after man in an endless succession. She probably dreams about each of them going down on her and licking the cum of the previous man away while stimulating her clit until she comes again and again (because we can have multiple orgasms.)

She probably thinks she is falling out of love with you every time she starts to get bored in bed because you are just sticking your cock in, pumping until you get off, and then falling asleep. And, according to statistics, it is more likely that she will end up leaving you than that you will ever leave her.

Your wife probably has more fantasies than you do about a wider variety of things, and she probably read 50 Shades of Grey and wanted someone to spank her, whip her, and eat her out like it was their job even while she was on her period.

Please stop acting like your wife could not possibly be bored.

AND, you are a shitbag if you get her sex toys that you want for Christmas. Buy her some damn jewelry and give her the sex toys only when she brings them up. And stop writing to me and saying stuff that makes me absolutely shocked at how shitty most men are.

Side note: My husband, on the other hand, would prefer that you keep writing to me saying shitty things that prove how clueless most men can be. He knows that as long as you keep making all other men look like complete jackoffs, I will keep being grateful to have him. 

 

Boyfriend

If you Google “Boyfriend” the first thing that comes up is a happy couple where the women looks like she is in love.

 

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If you Google “husband” you get a women trying to talk to a man and him looking annoyed. This is because we all know that many women get unhappy in marriages.