Orientation Series: Introduction

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There are a lot of components to a person’s sexual identity. I have watched a lot of people go through various struggles as they tried to sort out who they were, and I have gone through my own as well. So, I thought it might be fun to do a series on the various aspects of a person’s sexuality.

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Kink:

Some people are not kinky at all. We call these people vanilla. However, this is actually a pretty small percentage of the population. A lot of people are only interested in specific fetishes, but they are still some shade of kink. We’ll explore this more in the post about kink orientation.

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Gender: 

In culture, gender is often portrayed as binary: male or female. However, there is a lot more to it than that. Transgender people, intersex people, and various shades of in between male and female are all part of the variety in our species.

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Mono/Poly Attraction: 

Some people really are only interested in one sexual partner. They enjoy mating with a single person for life. On the other hand, some people are are interested in having several sexual partners at a time. That is one aspect of a person’s orientation.

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Sexual Orientation: 

Again, culture portrays this as a binary situation: straight or gay. However, most of us fall of a spectrum somewhere in between, with a sexual preference but interest in both sexes. And of course, some people are asexual and just like to cuddle.

Over the next few weeks I want to explore each of these aspects of orientation in detail, and discuss various topics related to your orientation.

Sex with Friends

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Recently a friend asked me to have sex with her husband. He is attractive, funny, and smart. We have been friends for a few years and it’s not like it hasn’t crossed my mind before. Once, when we went on a vacation together I happen to see him in his hotel room in less than a full compliment of clothing, and it was not an unwelcome sight.

You might think: If someone is attractive and you are interested in having sex with them, then where is the problem? Well, here is a brief list of the problems:

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1. My friend is a little insecure. I love her and I don’t want to say anything bad about her, but it is still true. She worries about how she looks, and about what people think. She second-guesses the meanings of what people say. (No really, I just meant what I say. I wasn’t implying anything.) And in general, she doesn’t feel as good about herself as I would like if I was going to sleep with her husband.

2. The request was probably motivated by her feeling guilty. She is dating. He is not. I think she thinks that if she finds someone for him to sleep with, it will alleviate her guilt about having feelings for someone else. Obviously if her husband consented to her dating someone else, then she has no reason to feel guilty. But the thing is, a person cannot control how they feel. And furthermore, they are not always aware of how they feel. The issue is that in my opinion, it is more likely that me sleeping with her husband would make her feel jealous than it is likely that it would alleviate her guilt.

3. I am not sure that her husband is actually interested. I never caught him looking. He doesn’t really talk to me in social settings. And I would hate to think he felt pressured into it because I really prefer to sleep with people who want to sleep with me. (Is there anything sexier than being desired?)

4. And finally, I think it would mess up our friendship. My husband has already stated that he thinks it would be awkward to sleep with my friend (it came up when I said she was looking for a play partner.) I don’t want her to have any reason to think about that too much, or to have any reason to have unkind feels towards me, or my husband, or her husband. I don’t the four of us to hang out and have it be awkward. And yes, I think that would happen in this situation (but I do not discourage sex with friends because it usually works out for me.)

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I want to stress the fact that I don’t think that it is impossible for two couples to be friends and also have sex with each other. It’s absolutely possible. However, the friends in question have never been really open about sex. It’s not something we talk about with them. They like to play card games and talk about nerdy things, which is totally cool. But sex has not been a subject that ever came up over the Thanksgiving turkey before. In fact, I think last time we had them over for Thanksgiving, we spent most of the time talking about our jobs. And that is cool. It’s nice to have friends like that. We value their friendship.

However, since sex never really comes up in conversation, we don’t know how open they are with each other about it. We don’t know if they talk about it and check in with each other and would be chill about having sex. They probably are super open and have a really healthy relationship where they talk about everything. But we don’t actually know that, so there is room for doubt. And doubt leads to worry that if they happen to be less open, then there could be room for miscommunication. I do hate miscommunication.

So then there is the other problem.

See, I have just explained why I don’t want to have sex with her husband. That leads to the next problem of telling her. Sleeping with someone’s husband can pose all kinds of problems. On the other hand, so can NOT sleeping with someone’s husband. I don’t want to offend them. If she wasn’t straight I would sleep with her. If I thought it wouldn’t fuck shit up, I would definitely sleep with him. I think they are both attractive and cool people. So it’s no offense meant. It’s just… maybe not the best idea.

Wish me luck.

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Being Outed

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Some of us who are kinky choose to tell the world, and are totally comfortable with it. My friend told everyone when he was a military contractor because they already thought the IT guys were weird, so why not? I respect that he could live like that, being “out” to vanilla people. However, it’s not something I ever wanted for myself.

At my last job, my boss was friends with someone who was dating a friend of mine. (It’s a small island and these things happen.) My friend is sort of new to the kink scene, and I don’t think it ever occurred to her that I would be really unhappy with being “outed” at work. So, she told my boss that I wrote kinky novels.

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Honestly, I hated that job because of it. The awkwardness was completely unreal. My boss refused to let it go, and got really sexually harassy about it. He mocked me in staff meetings saying things like:

“You can type up a report on that, right? Just make sure not to add anything about whips or heaving breasts!” 

Then everyone would laugh in an uncomfortable way.

This went on for months, and I was relieved to leave that place. While it was going on it was something I felt a lot of anxiety about and I didn’t know how to handle it because none of my requests for my boss to lay off seemed to have an effect. I started with:

“You know, my friend really shouldn’t have told you about that. Now that you know, would you mind keeping it between us? I am not really okay with anyone knowing. That is why I don’t write under my real name.”

However, he completely ignored me and made sure to work in a comment about “heaving breasts” at literally every opportunity, no matter who was around. I know I should have sued for sexual harassment. Please don’t comment on this and ask me why I didn’t. I just don’t have it in me to fight a legal battle like that. They always treat the woman like a pariah who “can’t take a joke” and the man like some poor guy who is nice and sweet and never did a thing wrong. I cannot deal with that.

So instead, I dealt with the harassment and I let it happen and I didn’t do anything. I am weak, and I am sorry to all the women who deal with sexual harassment that I didn’t take a stand. I should have.

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The point of telling this story is three fold.

First: Never ever out someone to another person without their consent. It a person wants to be “out” about their kink, that is their choice. It is not anyone else’s choice. If you saw someone at a munch and then you see them again in different company, don’t bring up the munch! If you know someone who works with someone you know is kinky, don’t talk about it! It’s a violation.

Second: Sexual harassment sucks. If you are a woman reading this, you have my sympathy. If you are a man reading this, please start taking this kind of thing seriously. It is not okay to dismiss women who say they feel uncomfortable with your “jokes.” I am sorry, but it’s just not.

Third: My name is Lady Violet and I am a Dominatrix and a kink author. That is how I am in my community and that is how I am on my blog. However, in my mundane life I have a different name. I am not “out.” I get enough new people in the community asking me questions and being awkward. I don’t need it from the vanillas as well. So if you know me, please don’t ever out me.

For those who are out: Thank you so much for being brave enough to represent our community to the world! Thank you for patient explanations in interviews with the media and in life! I used to be that patient, but now I am older and crabbier. All of us in the community appreciate you!

Shopping Suggestions

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Obviously I always suggest that you think globally but shop locally. However, that’s not something you can do often with kink (to my dismay.) Of course sometimes you know a great leather guy who does custom work, or something of the sort. But mostly, we have to order our toys online.

The question then becomes: Where to shop?

Of course you can always go to amazon.com, and hilariously, sometimes you’ll find a good deal.

However, let’s talk about some more targeted shopping.

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I have always had a soft spot for stockroom.com because they were willing to ship to me when I lived in South Korea.

Sex shops in Korea are very overpriced and have almost no selection.

Therefore, Stockroom.com saved me, and I will always be grateful.

Their stuff is definitely more targeted towards man-on-man action, but there are some awesome toys on there.

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My friend suggests Ethical Kink as a good resource.

They have synthetic leather and synthetic hair options, for those who don’t want to use animal products.

I admit that I can’t give up the smell of real leather.

However, I am totally happy to use fake hair on my tail butt plugs, since it lasts longer and doesn’t absorb bacteria.

So, check them out.

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For rope, you can’t do better than Twisted Monk.

These guys are awesome, and even include helpful videos on how to do various ties.

You could absolutely have an entire workshop based around everyone buying some rope from Twisted Monk and then following along with their videos.

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For crazy-classy collars, Eternity Locking Metal Collars is the most elegant thing you can find.

They are gorgeous, and having owned one, they are also easy to use and very functional. I highly recommend them.

They are not for play, of course. But for everyday kink wear that fits into a vanilla world, these collars are a beautiful option.

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There are also all kinds of suggestions online for where to shop, and I think that is a wise way to go.

Always go through someone who is recommended to you instead of a random website; just to be safe.

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Alien Fetish?

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There is a site called Primal Hardware which sells mostly your usual sex toy fodder. However, a new edition made me laugh, and I wanted to share it with you.

It is a dildo-like device which allows you to deposit “alien eggs” made of gelatin into the orifice of your choice. I am not sure if the excitement is in having the eggs go in, or in having the eggs come out. It seems like gelatin would melt at body temperature though, which seems like it would make quite a mess.

Then again, I suppose if you already have plastic sheets, you could consider the gelatin to be tube and give that a shot? The device is named “G’lorp,” which I think is probably the perfect name.

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Dating Woes

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I sometimes use this blog to vent, and this is one of those times. I know first dates are difficult, and kink first dates are more complicated than most. And yet, even in a complicated subculture, I expect better than my recent meeting.

Recently I was talking with a guy off fetlife.com, and he seemed like a pretty decent human. I agreed to meet him because I hate wasting time chatting with someone for weeks on end only to find out that they are gross in person.

(In my opinion, this is an attitude that most people in their 30’s have. It’s a huge waste of time to message back and forth like teenagers while being nervous about meeting up. I just want to look people in the eyes and see if they are cool or not first thing.)

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We met in a park by my house (it’s a public place so I know I am safe, but not a place where I am obligated to buy anything because I am cheap), and that was when I realized that this guy was clueless.

I mean straight-up without a damn clue.

He had only ever watched kink porn, and it was obvious that he was conflicted about actually doing a kinky thing. It was also obvious that he didn’t look at people in the scene as people; but rather as nothing more than vehicles to fulfill a fantasy that he is ashamed of.

Not only that, but he confessed after some nervous pacing that he is married, and his wife doesn’t know that he’s even into kink.

Best part: I was supposed to just be chill with all those issues.

Like I said: Clueless.

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I didn’t even know where to begin in terms of saying “This really isn’t cool.” I knew it had to wait until he was not in the same place as me because his pacing made me think he could become violent.

So, I waited until we parted ways and then I sent him a message.

It would have been a public service for me to explain to him all the various things that he did wrong. On the other hand, I didn’t feel like getting into a long conversation about why you shouldn’t spend the first date only talking about what you want while pacing like a psycho.

In the message, I just told him that I wasn’t okay with the fact that he lies to his wife. (Which is true. If my husband lied to me I wouldn’t be happy at all.)

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BDSM requires trust, and honesty. That definitely means that you shouldn’t lie to your wife.

However, women who are kinky are also people. No really, we are people. So we aren’t really keen to hear all about your fantasies and all your selfish wants, rather than having you ask us what we are interested in.

You know what else: noobs suck. Be a decent human being and read up on the kink community first before you waste someone’s time on a date. Learn. Read. Get a clue. Don’t go out with someone from the community when you have never been to a single kink event, don’t know anything about it, and have a bunch of issues in your head about kink because you haven’t accepted yourself yet.

And finally, don’t act like a psycho. Pacing like crazy and being unable to talk like a normal person is weird. Don’t be weird.

Gods I hate dating.

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Fodder for Your Imagination

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Sometimes it can be hard to come up with ideas for scenes/kink nights. When that happens, I like to go look for things that inspire my imagination.

A great example I came across is this blog. The “40 Bondage Positions” are great because you can look at each picture, and imagine the things that you could do to someone when they were in that position.

From floggers and whips to butt plugs and dildos, and even a little teasing with feathers or other toys…

So if you were looking for ideas, that’s my suggestion of the moment, because it gave me a lot to think about.

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